hmm....

Today was pretty hard.. but it seems like we all got through it as well as we could.
The funeral was rough, but nicely done. They played Elton John-Candle in the Wind... then later on Bob Seger- against the wind.... and played shelbys song (the Elton John song from lion king) as everyone was paying thier last respects.

This really sucks. I still think it hasnt hit me yet... idk when it will... maybe it never will. It just feels like hes away somewhere.. like rehab or jail, but not dead. Idk if I can except that for a while. But as long as he isnt hurting anymore I'll be okay. He really got the short end of this stick on alot of things, but he was truly a great person.

At the funeral my pastor was talking about Robbie living on a legend because he saved/and is saving peoples lives... and I just thought... Wow, he even saved my life, I really wish I could have saved his. My brother is my hero... I wouldnt be here if it wasnt for him... and if this didnt happen to me I would probably just end up like the rest of my family.. an alcohalic or a drug addict.

Im gonna miss u so much Rob... I always though u were the coolest person in the world... I really wish you didnt have to go through what you did. I know you didnt wanna go out like this... but your so safe now, you've finally found a place to stay, and you wont have to worry about moving.. money... a job... In a way your really lucky. I love ya so much, and Im gonna think about you everyday, and im gonna do so good for you Rob.. Cause I know you want me to. I love ya bro.

Only the Good Die young...